tugging at heart strings
and tear ducts.

please stop it now

I sit right here, holding the years
And I count all the stars in space.

ice cream craze these days!

hardrock chocolate brownie with vanilla
(not a fan of vanilla but the chocolateyness made up for it. revisiting of appletini+more -thanks belle+dinah &BAD DAY = case of eyes wide shut : me walking around with my eyes open but system shut)

awfully chocolate
(VERY YUMMY+pretty decor! that fateful day saw us gobbling Thai food and being ahem, psycho girls. pretty fun though :)

almost tried scoopz but failed again
(looks at Steph. but i ate yummy ba chor mee at pp which i suspect gave me a nasty tummyache! ._.)

i can feel the fatttttts.
not a +point that i'm prolly the unsportiest girl awardee.

random fact #o2,
i do happen to be able to blush beet red! (extent is uncertain)
amazing fact surfacing only after 17 years and 5 months.

moving on to fact unrandom #o3,
i need to put a curb to the laziness and
studyyyy

in the meantime
some erm, 'girls night out'
and birthday sights
would be fun (:

p.s what's with the rain!
&the disappointments; i dont like the weather forecasts on my face. (get over them already Wendy)

p.p.s brandi carlile fall apart again.

p.p.p.s you really need to let me know.

fabled angst machine

today

- declared study-free day
- blog surfing + random chatter about past = fun
- finally found fellow Grey's Anatomy fans within the compounds of SAJC! (though discussion was held btween 2 members of the Shorty Club and the 1 and only Tally Club member at the Beachy Chicken Rice kopitiam where cleaners wore mismatched plastic bag kneecaps)
- mango purIN is always (:ness
- rugby match is engaging (understatement for girls screaming themselves hoarse and hurting palms)
- boys = what's new?
- to please stop living in denial, we are all gonna be here for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

- time is spinning us round and when it does put us down, we wonder what shaky land is it we have landed onto.

Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space

Laying underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling great
Watch the red orange glow
Watch it float away

but maybe it wasnt that great.

-

weds

STEPHS BDAY!
fantabulous day shimmering (pun intended..ohgosh when was the last time we took neoprints! totally losing competitiveness in operating those damn outlandish machines!) with gaiety. all the laughter still resounding in my ears! Steph is one lucky girl and it must have been the first time this year ive ever seen anyone around me so genuinely happy.
it got to me and i went to bed smiling, feeling like a birthday girl.
many good buys too. retail therapy is always a plus point.
(:

da! i sudd rmb we took a pic outside Hard Rock. sudden jolt of memory! pls send me that sadly single picture i have of us!

ripped this off..the person above mentioned -points.

Your walk is: Pirate-esque Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

wht does it even mean..
._.

night, all!
may the shut-eye do you some good when you open them.

IF ONLY.
some things are better left unsaid.

ennui strikes,
tell me are we losing it.

yes i am,
as always.

HUANG WEITING I MISS YOU
but your eyes, being in shanghai (or not..SEE! tag me NOW!), will never see this.
oh, woe.
>:c
(many freaky movies i.e thai jap korean other asian horror flicks coming out! reminds me of you all the time. haunting me!)


STEPH CHEONG PHI PHI MS. STOCKS,
happy 18th
i Y you so.
(i am ze earliest!)

p.s Grey's Anatomy rocks more than your DCJ (which shall remain myseriously in initials! hahah) this is like White Oleander vs White Chicks.

cherry blossoms

take the lead ; 3 stars for fabfabfab moves and soundtrack but thin plot
tristan and isolde ; 3 stars for eye candy but waning interest

appletini ; 5 stars! we thank belle.

new cathay ; 4 stars! comfy theatre seats and great surround system. exciting upcoming stores (Ben&Jerry's cafe!) and flea market. (great buys! creditory to belle again..) thumbs up for budding local designers.

first in two weeks ; 4 stars! yes, they make or break our days secretly~ though we hate to admit it.


And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise

this stars system makes me feel like some critic.


& God knows how critical i am of myself
on many aspects
as well as the slowly but surely gathering part on all yous exploitation of one me
minor and major
but i'll be there.

off to rest my eyes
and my case on you,
one of a few.
(:

L.O.V.E

(oh gosh does that mean i'm into ashlee simspon..)

1. when loved ones disappear/ go mia on me, my human proclivity plays a really short video play of them hurled across the aspalt for a few feet then landing in a pool of blood. then the cold sweat begins.

2. when sitting next to..vertically challenged people on the bus i always feel obliged to accompany them throughout the entire ride in case they feel that i move away because of..sensitive issues. but the real reason is that there's a baby cockroach making its way up.

3. was it worth it when it was over?

4. my bleak future is staring at me in my face in every waking moment. due to rapid depletion of competency in..every aspect that i had.

5. first time in two weeks due tmrw.

p.s is my image still unviewable?

picking up the pieces in your trail on the milkyway

okay just finished l word season 2..
it was completelycompletely moving.
i didnt even know tears were streaming down till my vision was blurred..
oh gosh.
blown away now..
hahas.
shall retreat back into creamy dreaminess.

remember the days we smiled.

one thing i cannot comprehend is why is my blogger in chinese?!?! been staring at it in perplexion every time i try blogging.

anyways
the episode of distressed housewives
(sitting in a row at bus stop all sipping mango puree (!!) and psychotic exercising to emulate potong healthy lifestyle, which yz reminded me!)
calls for some ammendments
closing of the first chapter
and the funeral march had to be called for with much regret
though i would be the sole attendance gussied in black.
no more in retrospects.

I don't believe In the smile that you leave When you walk away And say goodbye Well I don't expect The world to move underneath me But for God's sake Could you try I know that you're true to me You're always there You say you care I don't understand Your love is so cold It's always me that's reaching out For your hand And I've always dreamed That love would be effortless Like a petal fallin' to the ground A dreamer followin' his dream Where is your heart Cause I don't really feel you It seems so much is left unsaid So much is left unsaid But you can say anything Oh, anytime you need Baby, it's just you and me


applause for almost completion of lword season2 !
am slow, i know. but what does it matter,
shane is still cute.
HAHA.

so Steph cheers me up with her perpetual disgusting nature
obsessive littering and stealing my papillion
AND tadahhh anna sui (:
a very belated birthday to me
(maybe birthday presents should be distributed within different spans of time to achieve better effect HA HA kidding gimme my presents!)
i Y, thankewwws.
evening runs in secret route soon pls!
(:

that was my weekend smile.

(privy to weekend tears has decidedly been forbidden)


surprising bumping into C
saw us exchanging shocking gossipzxs
not like they actually matter
but DYOUKNOW
scientifically proven to be beneficial to health, they are inevitable in our lives and people who claim they do not gossip are d e l u d e d liars. it is an innate characteristic of all humans.
so there.
anyways, forgive my digression.
C we need to revive study in togetherness days!


random discovery : oldies make you want to listen to their lyrics more intently. try Bread's Diary. (no mocking pls)

i hope my new layout doesnt look weird!
was getting very sick of rachel bilson looking pensive in the previous one.
this picture's out of a photo shoot i stumbled upon and matches my blog title so..haha.


bffs in the world, what does it take?
(note, bff does not = bf)

timely (and untimely lack of) love.

results been an absolutely poor bunch..
swinging to all-time low during my vague existence in sajc,
a major letdown.
every single subject contained a frustrating section that would bring the overall down :c
SIGH.

this calls for shift of focuses, i say.
for more - and less - since it had always been one sided anyways. (fights temptation to roll eyes)

crafted weekly study seshs better work out!! (FREDA KWOK LYE ER, ahem.)


anyways this week's been same old, same old.
laughter fills the air?
so do disappointment.
this package is a real trick-or-treat, i say (again)

reading up about boys by certified therapists don't work, jiang tzu.
SHAKES HEAD.


thumbs midway up (or down, depending how optimistic, or pessimistic you are) for the college's Life concert. loved the slowww ones. (told you ive been newly injected with some school patriotism.) BUT post effects riding up out of it could be gravity defying (: new discoveries everyday. a mini me ran out up stage to confess i do, love You.

danceworks def thumbs up, extremely impressed but i guess the participants were rather depressed. guess the judges (and the audience, such as i) bought all the cuteness oozing out of all the little boysss!! oohs. HAHA. BUT! alas, all were fab (: jln kayu supper was littered with shocking coincidentality (?) and churning stomach. good and not good. ohkay both not good. but company of 8 was noisy and good.


<3 all the sushi and tofu consumed thus far this week! (current major cravings of all time haha)
& my commendable week where shopping only took place within the restricted grounds of Popular. stationery shopping, it was. its all about New Beginnings.

before this turns too random, i shall be off in bed to brave another school day.



the futility screams
leave it be.